Up until a few weeks ago I was stuck in one of the deepest ruts I've been in for a while. Mostly do to someone I had become very good friends with doing something that I just find very morally wrong, she was knowingly seeing a married guy. After a few weeks of pondering things I decided I personally could not deal with that so I talked with her about things and my views on her actions including the reason for those feelings. She was in tears stating that I was the last person she wanted to hurt, but her excuses for seeing this married guy were pretty weak. This talk was back in Dec. I'm generally not one that steps back from a friend, and trust me it was not an easy thing for me to do, but felt I needed to for my own well being. Else I felt as if I was condoning these actions. Well there's been some uncomfortable moments (at least for me anyway) when she's around. Got to the point that I confronted her on some things, then she tells me that she stopped seeing the married guy a few days after our talk. I was both relieved and confused at the same time. Relieved obviously cause she's not seeing him, but confused because if she really cared about me as a friend at any level, I would have thought she would have at very least let me know that she was no longer seeing him. So I've been stewing over nothing for the last few months. We've conversed a tiny bit via email, I've commented that I would be interested in trying to revive our friendship and wanted to talk. She hasn't commented back stating she has any interest being friends.
Well last week I ended up having to work in my previous job due to them being overwhelmed with work and not having the people to get the work done. So I was loaned out to them. This girl I speak of above works in that area. Had we not have that slight discussion via email I would have been a wreck during that week. But I was pasted that now. Odd thing though, I had help her do some job for about 3 hrs (she's new to the position as she took my spot when I moved on to Engineering). For someone that has not commented about our friendship, she sure was trying to make small talk a few times.
I guess what I'm getting at here is that now knowing what I do, I feel MUCH better about things.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
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